When the time comes..

When the time comes, I might be able to smile again..
When the time comes, I might be able to stop the rain..
When the time comes, Skies will be blue and all would be true..
That in reality happiness is long overdue..

I choose to avoid,
And that i am certain..
I choose to avoid,
And that I in no return..
I choose to avoid,
Cause is troubling otherwise,
I choose to avoid
As there's no end by doing otherwise..

What else am I to do..
What else could I have done..
When all printed black and blue..
When all is set and done..

What else would you have done..
If you were in my shoes..
Will you flee and run..
Or will you stay and choose..
For there's no happy ending..
In this sobbing ranting.
I for one had had enough..
I for one is not that tough..
I am only human..
I am only sane..
I am only that capable..
To not drive myself insane..

Till next post peeps..
thanks for listening 2 the ranting..

A view on the highs and lowss

Yesterday was awesome.. and well..today practically sucked.. Big time.. There's just too wide of a difference and..further aggravates the suckitivity of today.. Bitter sweet my ass.. All I could picture doing now is grab a stick and whack the poop outta my Unit Controller for the workload I'm having to do today.. Cunt.. suck on this..

Escape Escape..

Another night spent typing and reading my ass off.. accompanied by buddies and my pack of reds.. Man.. Gonna be a hell of a month till finals.. =P Yr 3 yr 3... pls pls come to an end.. FASTER

Work work work

Why am I studying this load of crap?
Why is it so god damn hard?
Why why why?

What are the oddS?

Two entries in a day..after an absence of about a month or so.. what are the odds? Came in to clear out the emoness in the realm of mcdrunkie.. man i miss my drawings.. anyone miss it too? I wonder.. have been busy trying to figure out how to do the combine project and it is damn hell a huge challenge.. No doubt.. Possibly the hardest project to date and i'm busting my brains.. not saying it literally.. Its tough, worth 50 marks so.. Gotta keep going on i guess.. Got a bunch of tests next week too.. so..gotta get it done by this week.. Or else I'm doomed.. Stress.. Misfortunes usually come in times like these.. Lets see how things'll work out this time around.. Chances are.. not too good.. Gotta try being a better student..

When it falls, it falls all at once.

Been awhile since I last updated and heaps have happened.. Emokids have evolved into a bigger family now.. Fun are further expanding.. Just that, everything is clouded.. General happiness just don't cut it anymore.. As annoying as it seems, expectations have increased.. This back as it was a yr ago would be legendary.. Just don't cut it..

Fake smiles go dry eventually, and its coming to an end now. I'm drowning in the midst of deprivation. Deprived of what I really need. A wanting so deep, and for the 1st time after such a long time. Stupidity it may be, unappreciative as I was.. I finally realized.. I am only happy when I see the smile I've longed for each and everyday.. your shine of the sun.. your winkle of the moonlight.. your litters from the stars.. is where my happiness lies